Mental Health, Seer Stories, Supernatural Psychiatry

Could Yoga actually Cause Mental Illness? (What a Seer saw will shock you)


Have you heard of Hot Yoga? Christian Yoga? Scripture Yoga? Holy Yoga? Praise Moves? What are your thoughts on these practices? Have you even given them much thought?

I hadn’t given it much thought until I had to stare it in the face. Parts of this story I intentionally left out of my book (Med Free Bipolar, Amazon) because I was not ready to share, but as I see more and more people participating in Yoga, even churches, Christian retreats and conferences, I want to share my experience.

(This is my experience shared in love and not an invitation to attack me. Video version of some of this story on Facebook)

In the months leading up to my worst spiritual encounter to date in October of 2011, I had been feeling well and completely whole mentally. I had decided to more aggressively do research for my book: a version I thought would look different than the one I wrote. It was going to contain information on all the alternative modalities that are available to- day to treat mental illness naturally. I was going to try all of them that did not seem too far ‘off-Christian-based’. Med Free Bipolar was also going to be written anonymously. But instead of finding improvements to my mental health with each treatment I started…I started presenting psych symptoms for the first time in five years! My mental health started to decline, but in a newly strange and terrifying way. All the “text- book” symptoms were there, but in a way that was not familiar to me in how they had presented before I ever got well. I even started tracking symptoms again, something I had not needed to do in years. I sought help and considered going back on meds, seeing a counselor and clinic with med-management as backup for the first time in five years.

I was getting sick, very sick, despite my well-developed med free methods. Then, weird things started happening. My husband was having dreams of demons and my children all started having night terrors at once. One life-changing night, it was like a massive swirl of darkness filled me. Rage, mixed moods, rapid cycling, and visions of death filled me. It was unlike anything I had experienced before, it was so much worse, more intense, and I wanted to throw myself out the window to stop the torture! I had never felt such extreme states before. I went upstairs to be alone lest I hurt someone or something. The emotional and physical pain escalated and crescendoed. I stared in the mirror but the eyes were not blue like mine, they were all black and unfamiliar. I was scared. I grasped at every “remedy” I knew. I swallowed choline and inositol, sprayed lavender and tried to do the yoga child’s pose on the floor I had learned at the YMCA recently.

I wanted something, anything to relieve the torture going on in my head and body. I hit the button on the radio but heard no music coming from it, only the screams in my head followed by deafening silence. It felt like my ears were stopped up, like something was stabbing at my eardrums from the inside, or stuffed with cotton. Then something dark swam and swirled before my eyes and the room went black. I could NOT see, and I thought I had gone blind instantly. Falling to my knees I leaned forward into child’s pose. I held my hands upright in front of my face but nothing but blackness was seen through my open eyes. I was blind and deaf! Bipolar had never felt like this before, even in my complete psychosis in 1999.

Finally: exhausted, spent, desperate, and I don’t know why, as I had not prayed in a very long time, I screamed: “God, Jesus, Jesus, Help Me, help me PLEASE!” I do not know if I even meant it, least of all expected it to work! Instantly, the blackness dissipated just like it had come on: black swirls exited my eyes and I watched as they dissipated into the ceiling! And all the pain and symptoms disappeared instantly. The swirls of rage, anger, hatred, physical suffering, and mixed episodes were gone! My eyes were working, seeing and my ears unstopped. Immediately I heard a song fill the room, clear and actually quite loud, the volume turned up high in my desperate attempt to hear the radio when I had turned it on. It was a song I had never heard before. I felt like the words were directed into me, filling me, as if the artist had written them just for this moment, just for me. “Be still, there is a Healer His love is deeper than the sea His Mercy is unfailing His arms, a fortress for the weak (Chris Tomlin)”. The next instant I was taken into a vision, but it is a different vision that I want to share this time, one the Lord showed me as to HOW all of this happened in the first place, a vision I did not publish in my book.

I preface this with: as you know, a vision is only a partial glimpse that God gives you into a subject. I asked God to show me what had opened doors in my life and I had a series of visions over time regarding that period of my life. A screen popped up (as if in my imagination but way more vivid) and I saw myself sitting in a “non-spiritual” yoga class I had only attended about twice at the local YMCA. It was just like it had been when I was actually there a couple months prior, same mat, same clothes, but it was like I was looking down on the room from above. As I sat on my mat, a bat-man-signal-like light emanated from the top of my head, then the Lord spoke to my heart and said “Yoga is bodily worship of idols and it yokes you to spirits seeking worship. It always has been and always will”.  I then saw that the very poses attracted dark wisps of spirits who sought to be worshipped and signaled them that I was “open”. They were then entering my mind through the top of my head! I saw all this after the fact, but it was like I was seeing the real + the supernatural + from above, at the same time.

Romans 12:1-2 “Brothers and sisters, in view of all we have just shared about God’s compassion, I encourage you to offer your bodies as living sacrifices, dedicated to God and pleasing to him. This kind of worship is appropriate for you. Don’t become like the people of this world. Instead, change the way you think. Then you will always be able to determine what God really wants—what is good, pleasing, and perfect.”

I have had some other people tell me similar things and it is usually Christians who get REALLY defensive with me if I have ever said anything… so I don’t usually. Yoga, even just the few times I went, felt euphoric, like a drug. Even my son commented on how relaxed and happy I seemed after class. According to Purvi, a former Yogi Master, spirits entering the body will “chemically alter the system”, even making one feel high as if on a drug! It is a false peace, and one that comes with a high price!

Now, in my Brain Health Ministry clinic, I see client after client present symptoms of physical or mental illnesses never before experienced until “trying” yoga! One girl even had her first ever panic attack in her first every yoga class. Now any form of Yoga is something I will not have anything to do with. I have seen in the spiritual realm other things (like Reiki) that open doors to the enemy and my stance is just to draw a line in the sand for myself and warn others without judgement. I was shown in that vision that the direct cause of the spiritual doors opened in my home for my kids’ night terrors torment, my husband’s demonic encounters, and my rage-filled ‘bipolar episode’ and subsequent blinding by “dark entity wisps” were all caused by my attending a ‘harmless’, ‘non-spiritual’ yoga class at the YMCA (originally founded as a Christian organization)!  It was the price I paid for participation, even though my intent was FAR from idol worship!

Spiritual, religious, quantum, and supernatural aspects regarding mental illness have long been debated. I believe both neurobiological and/or spiritual reasons exist for some people with mental illness. I have since learned of may people who were diagnosed with physical or mental illnesses after participating in any yoga, even “Christian Yoga” (an oxymoron), and other spiritual ramifications in their home or family. So what is Yoga?

Yoga IS Idol Worship, plain an simple. The physical “stretches” for exercise and health benefits cannot be separated from the spiritual. (For an in-depth study on this, see a litany of research by former Yogi: Purvi)  Her viral YouTube videos are also a great wealth of this topic and confirm thousands of similar stories that she has received.

Not sure if “Holy Yoga”, or other “Christian Yoga’s” would have the same outcome as my experience above? Invite a Seer (someone who God has given the ability to use the eyes of their heart to see into the spiritual realm. “Unauthorized use of this is the ‘third eye’ sight, a counterfeit version of the Seer gift) or someone with a strong Gift of Discerning Spirits to come see what goes on “behind the scenes”… unfortunately, even demons can disguise as beings of light, so it takes the eyes of the heart to see from far above the lies.

See Blog Part ii for the “proof” and a great interview!

2 Corinthians 11:14-15 “And no marvel; for Satan himself is transformed into an angel of light. Therefore it is no great thing if his ministers also be transformed as the ministers of righteousness;whose end shall be according to their works.”


“My friends, you must keep away from idols.” (1 Corinthians 10:14)

More study on this topic:

Think you can be a Christian and do Yoga?  

From occult yoga to Jesus Christ 

Ex-witch tells all about Yoga

Yoga Uncoiled (former Yoga Teacher)

“Do you not know that your body is a temple of the Holy Spirit who is in you, whom you have received from God? You are not your own; you were bought at a price. Therefore glorify God with your body.” (1 Corinthians 6:19-20)

1 Timothy 4:1 “The Spirit says clearly that in later times some believers will desert the Christian faith. They will follow spirits that deceive, and they will believe the teachings of demons.”

1 Timothy 6:20-21 “Guard what God has entrusted to you. Avoid godless, foolish discussions with those who oppose you with their so-called knowledge. Some people have wandered from the faith by following such foolishness. May God’s grace be with you all.”

1 John 4:1 “Beloved, believe not every spirit, but try the spirits whether they are of God: because many false prophets are gone out into the world.”

Hebrews 13:8-9 “Jesus Christ is the same yesterday and today and forever! Do not be carried away by all sorts of strange teachings. For it is good for the heart to be strengthened by grace, not ritual meals, which have never benefited those who participated in them.”

1 Corinthians 3:16 “Do you not know that you are God’s temple and that God’s Spirit dwells in you?”


Dreams and Visions, Seer Stories, Supernatural Psychiatry

Identity in the Spirit (Seer Stories)

The Lord has been calling me to live a transparent life. That is pretty hard when I have so many spiritual things I have never shared with anyone but me and God. He is calling me to “live a life Well-Lit”, shedding a spotlight into all the dark corners and secrets of my heart and mind. He has been calling me for years to “tell the tough stories”. Well, the one I am finally sharing today is certainly one of them. All of this has happened this year, in 2017, but even though it has been a “God-year”, it has also been a very tough year for my health and my family. God is not calling me to something easy, believe me! So…. here goes…. sometimes I see dead people (just for some comic relief).

And sometimes I see living people as they are in the spirit instead of the flesh. When this happens, it’s like I love them like Jesus does, even if I have never even met them! Sometimes they look like a super hero wielding a flaming sword, or a hedgehog, or a jester dancing bear, or a Lady of Justice or Statue of Liberty, or a white steed, or a rainbow unicorn, or a mermaid, or a conductor of a heavenly orchestra with rainbow frequency ribbon music swirling overhead, or even a fighter pilot, shooting fiery darts and things out of the sky.

How is this even Biblical?! Well, I think the Bible gives us lots of insight into the Trinity’s multi-dimensional, multiple personality and spirit representations when he talks about the Lion and the Lamb, the Dove, the Good Shepherd, the Vine and Branches, the Eagle, the Mother Hen with her chicks, and more aspects of their supernatural spiritual identity. Personification comes to ‘real life’ in the ‘unseen realms’.

“The natural person does not accept the things of the Spirit of God, for they are folly to him, and he is not able to understand them because they are spiritually discerned.”           — I Corinthians 2:14 (ESV)

At first I did not know what to do with the information as it unfolded before my eyes. It seems like seeing in the spirit (seeing into the ‘unseen’ realms), is different for each person; most of what I see seems to be with both my natural and spiritual eyes, at the same time.  It’s like my spiritual eyes and my natural eyes are both wide open.

Sometimes I see with my mind’s eye, which seems more closely related to my imagination, but there have been many times where I am actually standing in an open vision and practically acting out in the natural what I was seeing in the ‘unseen’ dimension. It makes for clearer seeing of what is in front of you, but it can be terribly overwhelming at times, and has really made me look crazy to anyone else around me while it is happening! God is faithful to try and make sense of it all for me, or confirm things, or explain things, but that sometimes takes months or years, and in the meantime, it can just make you think like you are going nuts! It is like being inside of the movie set of an IMAX theatre experience while still being seated in the audience seat of the theatre.

Imagine sitting in a home-party meeting and all of a sudden their house walls fall away and you are seeing things that are very epic regarding entire people groups, religions, things that have already happened, things that are happening, and things that will happen in the future, all at once.

Almost every time it has happened I really have thought I was losing my mind; it was so vivid and real yet something I had a hard time processing with my research-oriented brain! The mind of Christ is literally mind-blowing to our limited perspective!

The first time I saw a friend of mine in the spiritual realm I reacted poorly because I had no clue what was happening to me! In the natural, she has lost an arm in a motorcycle accident, but in the spirit, the stump of her arm was wielding a fiery sword and she was riding a horse! Creatures were falling all around her and it looked like a battle scene from the matrix taking place in a galaxy. It truly looked like something straight out of the Book of Revelation! In fact, when I tried to explain it (doing a terrible job at it by the way) to her, to my hubby and pastor, they told me my friend was most certainly NOT in Revelation, and I was mistaken. I was. I was mistaking what I was seeing in the unseen realms for something that had been predicted in the Bible! Do you know what you would do if a scene from Revelation were to come true right before your eyes? They promptly took me to get psychiatric help, after determining that I was most likely not possessed. Never try to explain something like this while you are still in the middle of it! Take it to God alone, or you could end up like me trying to also explain to an in-patient psychiatrist that you ‘really did’ see people’s eyes manifest like a cat/snake eye, just like in the pictures below!

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What if another spirit looked out through your eyes and it manifested to the world, just every now and then?! This is WAY more common than most people think, (just google illuminati eyes on YouTube) and has happened to more than a few people I know personally, including when it happened to me and I was blinded by demons (a story I describe in my Amazon book by Aspen Morrow).

But the coolest part about seeing my new friend cut down demons with a flaming sword, wielded by a missing hand, was that it was like I was seeing her through Jesus’ eyes, and even though I still don’t even really know her, I loved her so much! I was also in a room full of other people, complete strangers, and I loved them all! Jesus loves you so much, and created you perfectly, body, soul and spirit!

Part of that evening was also spent in an open vision, with so much happening all at once, so it is really hard to sort out everything. I often get open visions of past, present and future, seeing people and sensing things in the spirit, and more, all at once, and often also set to an old hymn soundtrack like “His banner over me is Love”. Seeing things in the natural realm, spiritual realm, and also on multiple screens in my mind (like open tabs on a computer) all at once can really make trying to explain it in human language difficult!

lady of justiceSince I can’t find all of what I experience in the spirit in any book, even books about ‘seeing in the spirit’, the ‘seer anointing’, and the ‘gift of discerning spirits’, the Holy Spirit is my best teacher, and so faithfully and patiently teaches me. I have had Holy Spirit lessons about my open visions, trances, scary things like seeing demons in people, and why I see friends doing some pretty supernatural stuff at times! I wish I could see all of you in the spirit so I could tell you just how amazing you are and oh how much God loves you! You are His favorite child in the whole world!

I then saw another friend and a group of friends. I noted that all the women I saw were Believers. It was as if they were all on a stage, each with their own microphones, and they could all sing or do something musical. There was a performance, and living rainbow music swirling all about their heads. Together they formed a harmonious symphony, even though I knew they were spread out over an entire city, and not all in one place. Some of them can actually sing and conduct music well, but a couple of them, like me, can’t sing in the natural, but were singing more beautifully than anything I have ever heard. I was actually dealing with some serious chronic fatigue in the natural at the moment I was seeing this in the spirit, and I was being transported from one hospital to another in a medical transport.

I did not understand what I saw at the moment, but the Lord later explained part of it to me, which was amazing. He showed me that some of the women were praying for me, that He had laid me on their hearts, and that their prayers were songs for my deliverance. The girl I saw conducting the music was my best friend, a band conductor in real life, and the Lord told me later at the very moment I saw her in the spirit, she was simply delivering pizza to my kids and washing my dirty dishes. Her service to my children and our friendship in my time of need created a worshipful offering to God in the unseen realms, which combined with the prayers of others, created a harmonic banner of love over me. Your simple act of kindness or service in the natural is a prophetic act of worship in the realm of Heaven, and not only changes the atmosphere, but changes outcomes!

I don’t fully understand what I see, but it is usually tied to how what we are doing in the natural shows up in the spirit. There has been so much fruit come about by getting glimpses of our spiritual identities, including a better and deeper love for my husband, has shown me that my husband’s primary spiritual gifting is “Wisdom” and that I should trust what God has put in him. My husband is so amazing, and seeing him in the spirit has only strengthened that feeling and love I have for him exponentially.

My main point of sharing all this is this: ask God to speak to you about how HE sees you! Does he see you like an adult version of your favorite super hero as a child? All the spiritual identities have been multi-faceted and deeply personal to that particular person, like an intimate snapshot of all their hopes and dreams rolled up into their spirit-man. Did you have something you desperately wanted to be when you grew up that never came to fruition? Well, unbeknownst to you, your spirit may just be playing that role for you! God does not waste a single tear, so He is certainly not going to waste your hopes and dreams! After all, He put them there for a reason.

Live a Life well Lit, and always do the Bright thing!


(God calls me His “Baptist Seer”, lol!)

P.S. PLEASE let me know if you have ever had any similar experiences, you can comment here, or email me at if you are like me and been chicken to share some of these stories. I never thought I would share them; it has not gone well for me in the past when I have! Blessings, and remember, God’s got this, and He is fighting our battles!