Dreams and Visions, Seer Stories, Supernatural Psychiatry

Identity in the Spirit (Seer Stories)

The Lord has been calling me to live a transparent life. That is pretty hard when I have so many spiritual things I have never shared with anyone but me and God. He is calling me to “live a life Well-Lit”, shedding a spotlight into all the dark corners and secrets of my heart and mind. He has been calling me for years to “tell the tough stories”. Well, the one I am finally sharing today is certainly one of them. All of this has happened this year, in 2017, but even though it has been a “God-year”, it has also been a very tough year for my health and my family. God is not calling me to something easy, believe me! So…. here goes…. sometimes I see dead people (just for some comic relief).

And sometimes I see living people as they are in the spirit instead of the flesh. When this happens, it’s like I love them like Jesus does, even if I have never even met them! Sometimes they look like a super hero wielding a flaming sword, or a hedgehog, or a jester dancing bear, or a Lady of Justice or Statue of Liberty, or a white steed, or a rainbow unicorn, or a mermaid, or a conductor of a heavenly orchestra with rainbow frequency ribbon music swirling overhead, or even a fighter pilot, shooting fiery darts and things out of the sky.

How is this even Biblical?! Well, I think the Bible gives us lots of insight into the Trinity’s multi-dimensional, multiple personality and spirit representations when he talks about the Lion and the Lamb, the Dove, the Good Shepherd, the Vine and Branches, the Eagle, the Mother Hen with her chicks, and more aspects of their supernatural spiritual identity. Personification comes to ‘real life’ in the ‘unseen realms’.

“The natural person does not accept the things of the Spirit of God, for they are folly to him, and he is not able to understand them because they are spiritually discerned.”           — I Corinthians 2:14 (ESV)

At first I did not know what to do with the information as it unfolded before my eyes. It seems like seeing in the spirit (seeing into the ‘unseen’ realms), is different for each person; most of what I see seems to be with both my natural and spiritual eyes, at the same time.  It’s like my spiritual eyes and my natural eyes are both wide open.

Sometimes I see with my mind’s eye, which seems more closely related to my imagination, but there have been many times where I am actually standing in an open vision and practically acting out in the natural what I was seeing in the ‘unseen’ dimension. It makes for clearer seeing of what is in front of you, but it can be terribly overwhelming at times, and has really made me look crazy to anyone else around me while it is happening! God is faithful to try and make sense of it all for me, or confirm things, or explain things, but that sometimes takes months or years, and in the meantime, it can just make you think like you are going nuts! It is like being inside of the movie set of an IMAX theatre experience while still being seated in the audience seat of the theatre.

Imagine sitting in a home-party meeting and all of a sudden their house walls fall away and you are seeing things that are very epic regarding entire people groups, religions, things that have already happened, things that are happening, and things that will happen in the future, all at once.

Almost every time it has happened I really have thought I was losing my mind; it was so vivid and real yet something I had a hard time processing with my research-oriented brain! The mind of Christ is literally mind-blowing to our limited perspective!

The first time I saw a friend of mine in the spiritual realm I reacted poorly because I had no clue what was happening to me! In the natural, she has lost an arm in a motorcycle accident, but in the spirit, the stump of her arm was wielding a fiery sword and she was riding a horse! Creatures were falling all around her and it looked like a battle scene from the matrix taking place in a galaxy. It truly looked like something straight out of the Book of Revelation! In fact, when I tried to explain it (doing a terrible job at it by the way) to her, to my hubby and pastor, they told me my friend was most certainly NOT in Revelation, and I was mistaken. I was. I was mistaking what I was seeing in the unseen realms for something that had been predicted in the Bible! Do you know what you would do if a scene from Revelation were to come true right before your eyes? They promptly took me to get psychiatric help, after determining that I was most likely not possessed. Never try to explain something like this while you are still in the middle of it! Take it to God alone, or you could end up like me trying to also explain to an in-patient psychiatrist that you ‘really did’ see people’s eyes manifest like a cat/snake eye, just like in the pictures below!

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What if another spirit looked out through your eyes and it manifested to the world, just every now and then?! This is WAY more common than most people think, (just google illuminati eyes on YouTube) and has happened to more than a few people I know personally, including when it happened to me and I was blinded by demons (a story I describe in my Amazon book by Aspen Morrow).

But the coolest part about seeing my new friend cut down demons with a flaming sword, wielded by a missing hand, was that it was like I was seeing her through Jesus’ eyes, and even though I still don’t even really know her, I loved her so much! I was also in a room full of other people, complete strangers, and I loved them all! Jesus loves you so much, and created you perfectly, body, soul and spirit!

Part of that evening was also spent in an open vision, with so much happening all at once, so it is really hard to sort out everything. I often get open visions of past, present and future, seeing people and sensing things in the spirit, and more, all at once, and often also set to an old hymn soundtrack like “His banner over me is Love”. Seeing things in the natural realm, spiritual realm, and also on multiple screens in my mind (like open tabs on a computer) all at once can really make trying to explain it in human language difficult!

lady of justiceSince I can’t find all of what I experience in the spirit in any book, even books about ‘seeing in the spirit’, the ‘seer anointing’, and the ‘gift of discerning spirits’, the Holy Spirit is my best teacher, and so faithfully and patiently teaches me. I have had Holy Spirit lessons about my open visions, trances, scary things like seeing demons in people, and why I see friends doing some pretty supernatural stuff at times! I wish I could see all of you in the spirit so I could tell you just how amazing you are and oh how much God loves you! You are His favorite child in the whole world!

I then saw another friend and a group of friends. I noted that all the women I saw were Believers. It was as if they were all on a stage, each with their own microphones, and they could all sing or do something musical. There was a performance, and living rainbow music swirling all about their heads. Together they formed a harmonious symphony, even though I knew they were spread out over an entire city, and not all in one place. Some of them can actually sing and conduct music well, but a couple of them, like me, can’t sing in the natural, but were singing more beautifully than anything I have ever heard. I was actually dealing with some serious chronic fatigue in the natural at the moment I was seeing this in the spirit, and I was being transported from one hospital to another in a medical transport.

I did not understand what I saw at the moment, but the Lord later explained part of it to me, which was amazing. He showed me that some of the women were praying for me, that He had laid me on their hearts, and that their prayers were songs for my deliverance. The girl I saw conducting the music was my best friend, a band conductor in real life, and the Lord told me later at the very moment I saw her in the spirit, she was simply delivering pizza to my kids and washing my dirty dishes. Her service to my children and our friendship in my time of need created a worshipful offering to God in the unseen realms, which combined with the prayers of others, created a harmonic banner of love over me. Your simple act of kindness or service in the natural is a prophetic act of worship in the realm of Heaven, and not only changes the atmosphere, but changes outcomes!

I don’t fully understand what I see, but it is usually tied to how what we are doing in the natural shows up in the spirit. There has been so much fruit come about by getting glimpses of our spiritual identities, including a better and deeper love for my husband, has shown me that my husband’s primary spiritual gifting is “Wisdom” and that I should trust what God has put in him. My husband is so amazing, and seeing him in the spirit has only strengthened that feeling and love I have for him exponentially.

My main point of sharing all this is this: ask God to speak to you about how HE sees you! Does he see you like an adult version of your favorite super hero as a child? All the spiritual identities have been multi-faceted and deeply personal to that particular person, like an intimate snapshot of all their hopes and dreams rolled up into their spirit-man. Did you have something you desperately wanted to be when you grew up that never came to fruition? Well, unbeknownst to you, your spirit may just be playing that role for you! God does not waste a single tear, so He is certainly not going to waste your hopes and dreams! After all, He put them there for a reason.

Live a Life well Lit, and always do the Bright thing!

Aspen

(God calls me His “Baptist Seer”, lol!)

P.S. PLEASE let me know if you have ever had any similar experiences, you can comment here, or email me at aspenmorrow@icloud.com if you are like me and been chicken to share some of these stories. I never thought I would share them; it has not gone well for me in the past when I have! Blessings, and remember, God’s got this, and He is fighting our battles!

Mental Health

Mental Illness vs. Spiritual Experiences

Is it mental illness? Or is it something else? Could it be something Spiritual or Otherworldly? Are those voices coming from a malfunctioning Temporal Lobe (more in a future blog), which can cause heightened spiritual experiences, feelings of dejàvu, and even hallucinations, or could they actually be coming from something in the spiritual realm? These questions have plagued mankind for as long as the mind has existed. Many illnesses were contributed to spiritual causes once upon a time, but mental illness is the only one that seems to perpetuate this dual causation. I find myself defending a stance that modern psychiatry has long tried to stamp out with only science.

I personally feel it can be both spiritual and neurobiological, either, or neither. And I have experienced all three. I have lived normally (experiencing neither) most of my life, but have also had more than my fair share of psychosis (even catatonia) and have had many encounters with the spiritual realm that no one could ever convince me of being psychotic.

Most of these experiences were very different from each other, although I do think one of them was a combination of both. I will be talking about my journey as someone who has had a successful run of treating bipolar naturally for years (best-selling author of Med Free Bipolar, Amazon), but has also operated in the “seer” capacity of seeing beyond the Veil into the spiritual realm off and on since I was three. I am a follower of Christ, but have spent much time (as an Asian Studies minor in college and living in Japan) studying world religions and know more about most religious/spiritual beliefs than many of the people who claim them.

I also operate in a professional peer-to-peer setting as a Dr. Amen Brain Health Certified Coach, where science, research, proof and evidence reign in my day-to-day work, but where clients regularly are drawn to me to talk about all the spiritual and religious things they can’t explain to their psych doctor without fear of committal and extra medications. It’s a safe place where nurses share about the fading light and spirits they see leave people’s bodies at the hospital where they work, and “new agers” chat with me about astral travel and past lives at the same time they talk to me about their mood swings and anxiety. I even get to pray over some of them for healing if they ask me to, right before I share with them what has worked for me using scientifically-backed natural methods. The juxtaposition between the two should seem strange, but is just a part of my ‘normal’ day. God has given me more than one way to provide them with insight and answers.

But now I am meeting whole groups of people who operate in the supernatural without a diagnoses of mental illnesses. On the “I’m spiritual not religious” side, many of them talk of “astral travel”, meditation, seeing spirit guides and claim to be messengers of angels, as well as healers performing successful hands-on-healing techniques where I have seen results. Many in this group seek enlightenment and talk of hearing voices from the supernatural realms without seeming to care if people call them ‘crazy’.

On the “religious not spiritual” side of this, I have interviewed many people who operate in what is called the Gifts of the Spirit (1 Corinthinans 12), or other religious experiences, like seeing into the spiritual realms, speaking in tongues (heavenly languages), discerning whether spirits are good or bad, and even the Christian version of astral projection, called “traveling in the spirit”, or “supernatural transportation” (2 Corinthians 12:1-5, Revelation 4:1-6, Ezekial 8). Many in this group are also performing successful healing miracles, seeing angels and demons, and seeing people delivered from mental illness for good. One of my favorite early “faith-healers” was Katheryn Kuhlman, who saw thousands of people healed in her meetings without even touching them (watch the old videos on YouTube).

I sometimes wonder what would happen if a psychiatrist could hear these two groups talk about spirit travel and angels without locking them up for good! There is already one in five people diagnosed with a mental illness! There is a debate beginning whether mental illness even exists, or if psychotic experiences are just a “shaman” or “seer” coming into their abilities. (Shamanistic view of mental health). I personally, however, have seen people develop their first psychotic episodes due to delving into spiritual practices such as reiki, yoga and meditation. (See the chapter in my Med Free Bipolar book titled: Mind, Body, Spirit)

So, how do you know whether what you are dealing with is mental illness, or something spiritual? Well, sometimes you just can’t. But there needs to be more discussion about both, and more dialogue about options that are out there for addressing the underlying neurobiological issues (see www.medfreebipolar.wordpress.com), as well as the spiritual solutions that exist. In this blog, I will be openly talking about all things mental health, as well as things that seem quite crazy, like exploring the word God laid on my heart recently: See-ER (Spelled SEER in a vision but pronounced to me in my heart as See-ER, one who sees.) As I study the differences between diagnosable “crazy” and “seeing” and “hearing” voices from God, my life weaves back and forth between the two like a braided cord my whole life. There are many stories I will tell that are clearly not “diagnosable”, or explainable by the world of psychiatry, which include many visions that later came true, as well as incidents that other people witnessed.

I believe God’s Psychiatry is the answer, both in the answers He has given us for Med Free mental health, as well as the spiritual answers. We are body, soul and spirit, and separating them and compartmentalizing them is part of why we have found ourselves in such a mental health mess.

It’s time to open our Hearts, Minds, and Spiritual Eyes to the only One who has all of the answers.