Eradicating Suicide. Blow the trumpet. I wanted to feel up to making a video for world suicide prevention day, but after a quick trip to Spokane, street healing, I wasn’t up to being seen in my day-long PJs.
But my take on suicide prevention is different than many of the posts today.
I WAS that teen, who, at thirteen, following molestation, imagined all the ways I could kill myself and get away with it. I know most people don’t relate. They don’t relate to the cutting scars on my arm or the stigma people still flash at me like a pity smile when they hear about my book.
But my take on prevention and cures is different than most. I know of a cure that helps over 85% STOP the thoughts. STOP the rumination, STOP the CUTTING, self-harm, self-loathing, regret, shame, loneliness, hopelessness, and hatred.
I have to sit by and watch people needlessly die. Needlessly suffer. Needlessly be stuck inside a head that longs for relief, for the thoughts to stop, for the whispers to stop, for the pain. To. Stop.
I am quiet most of the time when the CHURCH says it’s demons, or the person’s fault… or a chemical imbalance, or their “selfishness”, while a cure has already been found. I have seen thousands recover, while millions die. I spend every day helping the ONE put in front of me, while I want to shout from the rooftops and STOP it in its tracks. Everywhere. Worldwide!
I have to watch friends post who won’t even let me help them or their children, who think this epidemic has no remedy, when actually the quite opposite is true!
I have seen a woman screaming in her sleep from night terrors and weekly suicidal house calls from the police turn around with JUST mineral pink salt. Her husband reported her LAUGHING in her sleep even while they couldn’t have even afforded the gas to get to a doctor.
I have seen a woman who is an amazing Christian, who got suicidal every FALL like clockwork for twenty years turn around and call me each year when another one goes by suicide-thought Free.
I sit with people to try and keep them out of the hospital when it gets bad. But so many people don’t know an effective cure has been found.
It seems all I do will never be enough. I want to 🛑 STOP ALL suicide. And i won’t settle for anything less!!!!! Why do I believe this is possible?! Because once upon a time, Scurvy was an epidemic. And for 264 years, a cure existed that nobody knew about! Pills were pushed and it was a medical mystery. But then Vitamin C became the known cure, and scurvy is mostly eradicated! Let’s eradicate suicide before another 264 years pass!
There is an effective natural treatment almost as simple as vitamin C. These thoughts come from hangry deficient brains, and can be fixed! I don’t know how to FUND a remedy with little profit, or make a big enough dent in the message, but i do KNOW that I believe suicide can and should already be ERADICATED!!!!
What will it take? Cause I’ll do it. I will hit the streets and continue opening my clinic for free. I will speak for those who cannot speak for themselves. I will let them touch my scars and show them they can come out the other side. All it takes is a spark of HOPE, and a MIRACLE cure, and I have BOTH!!!
I am 41 years old now, but the deep cutting scars left behind from my 16th year of life are still clearly visible. In my brain-speciality Traditional Naturopathic practice, teenagers want to reach out and touch them, a link between their current self and their future self, a self they have often wondered would still exist. The pain is clearly visible in their eyes. They want it to end. All of it. I want to help them, and I know how.
I am 16. Sitting in my bedroom, I am thinking about my boyfriend and the red streaks across his arm. He taught me to cut. Then he told me he would stop cutting. He lied. I told him if he did it again, I would do it worse. If he did not care about himself, hopefully he would care about me, my irrational brain tried to rationalize. His shallow cuts at school today had been streaks across his left arm, not vertical like a suicide attempt, but horizontal, on purpose. I took the razor blade and raised it above my arm. Up, Down, across. [“Too shallow, you Woose!” A voice in my head whispered] The next line was deeper, way too deep, clear to the bone! [“Too deep, idiot!” the voice yelled. “What are you trying to do, kill yourself?!” it sneered]. The next three cuts were perfect, except for slicing a large freckle in half. The relief was palpable; I did not even feel the pain till later, and I grinned thinking, “I’ll show him”! I meant business. Butterfly bandages held the gaping wounds closed where I should have gotten stitches; long-sleeved shirts hid them from my mom.
This is not NORMAL thought for a 16 year old, and thankfully now I know why I was susceptible to trying to relieve emotional pain through cutting (self-harm/self-injury).
Thankfully, I grew out of those self-harm tendencies, but I see clients in my office, from pre-teen to senior-aged, whose cutting tendencies still remain, or have just “graduated” into other self-harming methods. Other methods can include:
Food-Related: Overeating, Under-eating, Anorexia, Bulimia | Self-Injury: Cutting, Hair-Pulling, Scratching, Chemical burns, Biting, Stabbing, Burning, Picking, Branding, Banging, Bruising, Bone breaking | Injesting: Self-medicating, Over dosing, Inhaling/sniffing substances, self poisoning, swallowing objects | Drug and Alcohol: Smoking, Drug Abuse, Alcohol Abuse
March is Self-harm Awareness Month. Self-injury Awareness Day is a grassroots annual global awareness event / campaign on March 1 & March 15, where on this day, and in the weeks leading up to it and after, some people choose to be more open about their own self-harm, and awareness organizations make special efforts to raise awareness about self-harm and self-injury. The goal of the people who observe SIAD is to break down the common stereotypes surrounding self-harm and to educate medical professionals about the condition.
So, how AWARE of these issues are we, really? What if there were a small, select group of individuals that actually know the ROOT cause of what happens in self-harm cases, and HOW TO FIX it and especially, PREVENT it in the first place?
Here’s another story, and it is more related than it seems on the surface.
Have you heard of CRIBBING in horses?
Horsecribbing is also known as wind sucking or crib biting. Cribbing is not a natural behavior but rather a compulsive habit and addiction, caused by an underlying mineral deficiency. Although some horse owners think it develops as a result of boredom or anxiety or a combination of the two, veterinarians know that if the mineral deficiency is addressed, the cribbing will mostly stop. Some may continue as a result of bad habit, but if the deficiency is prevented, the cribbing won’t occur in the first place! The horse may be thinking he is bored, or anxious, or that the fence post tastes good, but in reality, he is unconsciously mineral deficient. There are even ‘anti-cribbing’ mineral-fortified feed supplements widely available. Cribbing? Up the minerals!
CUTTING is the HUMAN EQUIVALENT of CRIBBING IN HORSES!
According to Dr Joel Wallach, researchers, and other veterinarians turned human doctors, cutting, self-harm, and many other sources of addictions, have their root-causes in several mineral deficiencies in the brain! It is similar to the mineral-deficient condition of Pica, common in deficient pregnant women.
“Obesity and overweight problems are synonymous with Americans. Nibble, nibble, nibble all the way home. ‘Pica’ is a seeking, a craving with licking and chewing behavior that has its genesis in mineral deficiencies – interestingly enough neither vitamin deficiency, protein deficiency or calorie deficiency initiates this ‘pica’ behavior, nor will supplementing vitamins [absent of minerals] or eating sugar, carbohydrate, fat or protein quench it!!!
Since American soils are critically deficient and depleted in minerals it is no surprise that pica, cribbing, [cutting], and cravings dominate the American scene. America is minerally deficient – dieters, athletes, vegetarians, meat eaters, embryos, children, teenagers, young adults and seniors.”
In Dr Wallach’s book, Dead Doctors Don’t Lie, is where he addresses cribbing in horses and cutting in humans both being linked to the same underlying mineral deficiency as its cause!
I have seen this first hand in my brain health Traditional Naturopathic practice, Aspen Brain Health what happens when these depleted kids get proper micronutrition in proper amounts. Teens think they are cutting because they think it makes them feel better, cope with stress, release emotions, they are bored, and many more reasons: like the pain they feel on the inside needs to be dealt with outwardly. These reasons are all true and valid, but I contest that the cutting never would have happened in the first place had a deficiency not occurred before the behavior set in. I also see that supplementing with quality salt and a mineral supplement, like BYou (Formerly used older formula Empoweplus) for the brain, can, in most cases, stop the cutting behavior! The behavior that continues on from there is then more closely linked to habit, and bad habits need to be broken.
Have a child/teen who cuts? Are you an teen/adult who struggles with any of the above self-harm habits or tendencies? What can you do?
4 Steps to Freedom from Cutting:
1- Supplement with Pink Salt (84 minerals). Approximately 1 Tbsp a day with 8 glasses of water. (Put on food, under tongue, Sole, ect…)
2- Supplement with Brain Mineral Supplement: B.YOU
3- Prevent Boredom or situation where ruminating self-harm thoughts occur
4- Remove items typically used to self-harm: razor blades, knives, erasers, paperclips, drugs, alcohol, & food
5- Ask for Help: Be accountable to a friend, family member, and ask God for help. He desires to set you free from all bondage.
And, just cause I like to throw in a supernatural true story or two, what do you think about this?! I attended a healing service with Dan Mohler (click to watch!) and he claims to have seen people with cutting/self-harm scars completely healed! He calls it being brought back to original value! Cutting Scars, track-mark scars and more just wiped away in Jesus’ name! Even more than that, people have had STDs healed too! So, when he had an alter call for those who have been affected by STDs or cutting scars, I thought it would be sooo cool to show my kids tangible proof of God’s supernatural healing power, by asking Him to erase my cutting scars that run across my left arm. But when I went forward, I clearly heard Jesus say: “I kept my scars, and I am asking you to keep yours too. They serve as tangible proof to the teens you help who want to touch them.” Tears ran down my face, and so we agreed, right there and then, that I get to keep my scars. Do you have scars? They serve as proof of how you can and will overcome! God wants to restore you original value and make all things new!
My trip into alternative healing to write my book, Med Free Bipolar (Amazon) led me down some rabbit holes I almost did not get out of! It was like Alice and Wonderland for sure, but I almost got lost indefinitely. Now, five years into working with clients on natural mental health in my Aspen Brain Health ministry clinic, I am more convinced than ever that not all things that start out good, end good. Traditional Meditation is one of those things, and I have seen it actually lead to psychosis and spiritual crisis, even involuntary hospitalizations! It is also being taught inside the psych hospitals, an ironic twist, don’t you think?
Meditation – Although many start using mediation or mindfulness simply as a way to calm the mind or be present when manic, it can lead to other spiritual experiences.
“If you’re not aware of meditation dangers, they can unexpectedly come and cause many troubles in your life, such as frightening visions, non-physical con- tacts, or even insanity.” –Simona Rich, Experienced Meditator and blogger (emphasis mine).
The purpose of mediation is to awaken to the Divine knowledge that you are a god yourself, and that you do not need God. In mediation, “the loss of connection to god must happen for you to realize that you are god….When you meditate you may get many interesting meditation experiences. For example, when I meditate, I sometimes hear conversations in different languages, see certain events from this and other worlds and see different beings.” – Simona Rich, Meditator. Rich, as a very experienced meditator, has great articles on the benefits and warnings when it comes to meditation. You can “google” her.
These experiences are actually quite frequent, as I am told by my brother and other friends who practice meditation. It is not just for relaxation by any means.
If you are not prepared for this or aware that this may happen, then it can come as quite a shock. If you are, then it can help prevent a psychotic episode. If you are ok with this happening, then meditation may be a viable form of stress release for you. These modalities are being introduced into psychologist’s offices, doctor’s offices, and even the schools as benign and medically backed practices, and this is where I take concern. It is not my place to judge these practices, just observe and investigate; I am for the recipients having all the facts and being educated enough to decide for themselves what treatments they want to pursue.
Contemplative Prayer- I am very progressive when it comes to Christianity. I believe in all the spiritual gifts as active for today, and in the five-fold ministry. I believe traveling in the Spirit, being seated in Heaven now, and other “weird” things that the Bible clearly talks about are very active today. I believe everything we NEED to know is in the Bible, but not everything God wants to reveal is in the Bible, but that revelation today won’t contradict the Bible.
I consider myself a “mystic Christian” (mystic means one “who believes in the spiritual apprehension of truths that are beyond the intellect”) because, as God told me personally, “You are not crazy, you are a Seer.” I did not like that word at the time, and He had to redeem that word for me. I don’t actually know now if I ever really was bipolar, or if I have just been healed completely, but I do know that God has told me several times since just 2017 that I am healed.
So what about the “Christian version” of Mediation, Contemplative Prayer? Well, interestingly enough, I do not have as much grid for this as I would think. I personally have experienced open visions, trances, and things most Christians would say is ‘demonic’, or not of the Holy Spirit, or not for His people today, but ALL of them were uninitiated by myself. God started them, not me. The most I had “done” to bring an experience on when one of them occurred was Fast for the day. I do not believe in “emptying your mind” but I do believe in meditating on the Word of God, and being still before Him in order to hear him. Seems like we are always talking and asking Him for stuff, when really He just wants to walk with us in relationship with Him. Everything is about intimacy with the Father. What I do not like is other Christians using “friendly fire” to knock other Christian’s experiences, because unless clearly demonic, New Age, of the occult, or clearly against the WORD, there is just simply alot we don’t know. We aren’t God.
Romans 11:33 — “Of the depth of the riches of the wisdom and knowledge of God! Hoe unsearchable his judgements, and His paths beyond tracing out!”
I LOVE this verse! We are always trying to trace everything out! We can’t, but we do need discernment, and those without it (or Grace, or Wisdom) need to stop pointing fingers at those whom God is taking out in the deep end.
But there is another saying that needs to stop being thrown about: “God’s power to keep me from being deceived is bigger than satan’s power to deceive.” Yuck. My Spirit does a summersault every time I hear this, and not in a good way! Yes, it’s a true/false statement. God is more powerful than anything, but God will certainly let you be deceived if you use your free will to do Eastern Meditation, Yoga, Reiki, idol worship, adultery, or anything else He considers an abomination! I was a Born Again Believer when the enemy walked right into my life with all kinds of deception. So stop saying that please, just stop! I have also seen the most beautiful angels I have ever seen turn to the side to reveal grotesque demon heads. Their ability to deceive has been honed over thousands of years, and anyone saying they are incapable of being deceived has likely already been deceived greatly. One of my pastors told me of another pastor who saw in the spirit very well, and angels led him into an affair. Perfect example of dark masquerading as light!
2 Corinthians 11:14 — “And no wonder, for Satan himself masquerades as an angel of light.”
Ask Daddy, he is so faithful to answer! Seek His face, spend time in His Word! Hunger and thirst for His righteousness.
(Want some scripturally sound “meditation”, try the app ABIDE. And I love WholeTones for music)
Salt can relax muscles, calm nerves, smooth out anger, and tame RAGE.
Natural Lithium Orotate versus Prescription Lithium Carbonate:
The bipolar/brain/mental health link to salt deficiencies has been understood for centuries. Lithium is a salt compound. Lithium carbonate was approved by the FDA for the treatment of mania in 1970, but had long been in use prior to that. It was discovered as an element in 1817, and was used in the treatment of mania as early as 1871.
Naturally occurring lithium-rich mineral baths and springs attracted people for their numerous health benefits, even including the word “Lith” in their establishment name to allure the public. Lithium used to be considered a good thing and sought after for its health benefits. Now it holds a stigma almost as strong as mental illness itself does.
Natural forms of lithium are less concentrated and are compounded differently than the prescription forms, so side effects are not as great an issue.
I am neither for nor against medications as a strict rule; I am however, very much for you knowing all of your options and alternatives. The doctors can let you know about all of the prescription options available to you, but they may not know about a safe, natural form of lithium.
Although this lithium, called lithium orotate, has not been clinically studied side by side with lithium in actual clinical trials that I am aware of, it has been tested by several of my peers with bipolar who did pretty well for years on lithium carbonate (by prescription), and then transitioned over to lithium orotate (found in health food stores). They found even greater health and stability without the side effects, prescription refills, blood tests, and fear of kidney failure.
If there were a safer, more effective form of lithium that you could get without a prescription, wouldn’t you want to know about it? I did, and even got righteously angry the more I learned. The very thought of doctors prescribing the prescription form of lithium makes me sick to my stomach since I discovered a healthy rather than toxic alternative!
NOTE: When using the Med Free Method™, it is important to follow water and salt recommendations. Too much water can dilute stomach acid and digestive enzymes, as well as flush out minerals and nutrients, while too little water will leave you with even bigger problems like constipation and dehydration, especially due to the increased salt intake.
Lithium Orotate (120mg), over the counter in health food stores
Most people don’t realize that lithium itself is not a drug, but a naturally occurring mineral salt, like potassium. It can be found in water, soil, and in fruits and vegetables. Lithium is vital for the proper functioning of every brain.
I often get asked how is lithium orotate different from lithium carbonate and lithium citrate (the ones prescribed)? Lithium orotate is in its natural mineral form, requiring less to affect more results. The body utilizes about 97%, whereas it takes large quantities of the pharmaceutical grade lithium, at near toxic levels, to be effective.
Dr. Hans Nieper of Germany discovered that lithium orotate and/or lithium aspartate penetrate cells more effectively than lithium carbonate. This means that smaller doses can be used to achieve therapeutic results, versus the higher doses of prescription lithium that borderline toxicity levels. The effective therapeutic window using prescription lithium is dangerously close to the toxicity level, which is why regular blood/toxicity levels need to be checked through doctor supervision.
Lithium orotate is a safe over-the-counter mineral supplement that can be safely used to augment symptoms of:
• Memory Loss & Stress
• Bipolar Disorder I & II (formerly known as manic depression)
• ADHD and ADD, Depression
• Alcoholism, Aggression, and fighting in marriages, & reduce sibling rivalry!
• Post Traumatic Stress Disorder (PTSD), Alzheimer’s, and much more
It is said to be effective for 70-80 percent of individuals with bipolar who take it! I was scared of this natural remedy for quite a while. Even the name scared me into thinking it was like the prescription lithium, of which I had heard horror stories of kidney failure, blood lithium level checks, and other debilitating side effects similar to what I experienced while taking Depakote.
I encourage you to do your own research, of which there isn’t much out there, but I have read quite extensively now on this natural salt. I have talked to chiropractors, health-food storeowners, and naturopaths about its safety and efficacy. I can see that it may be amazingly beneficial to many people without the harmful side effects. I have also witnessed first hand many of my peer coaching clients at Aspen Brain Health use this as their sole natural remedy for the brain with great results. However, most people need a combination of things, like Q96 + Lithium Orotate + Gut Health + Omegas.
For the “broke, busy, or lazy,” lithium orotate could be a first natural treatment protocol if desired, as it is quite inexpensive. It is more effective at much lower doses than prescription lithium because it goes directly into the blood stream and is more potent at low doses!
It can also be beneficial for every “normal” brain as well! It protects the brain in a number of important ways, and has recently been found that low doses can actually restore and increase the grey matter in the brain, which is said to be the source of intelligence. It preserves and even renews brain cells. Eight out of ten people given lithium orotate increased their grey matter by 3% in only four weeks! Nothing else so far has been shown to do this. Supplementing with small amounts of lithium orotate may also provide anti-aging benefits to the brain, as well as protecting it from toxins. Lithium can also:
• Block the damaging effects of excitotoxins like Monosodium Glutamate (MSG), aspartame (found in diet sodas), and other chemicals found in processed foods
• Help form new cells by enhancing DNA replication
• Help protect against brain cell death caused by anti-convulsant drugs
• May protect against damaging effects of illegal drugs, alcohol, tobacco, caffeine, and marijuana
• May repair the brain’s abnormally-functioning neural pathways
• Help chelate aluminum thought to cause Alzheimer’s disease (AD) so that it can be expelled from the body according to a 2001 abstract in Society for Neuroscience.
The most interesting thing that I found in my research of lithium was a case study where 27 Texas counties found that the incidences of homicide, rape, robbery, burglary, suicides, and arrests for drug possession were significantly higher in counties whose drinking water contained little or no lithium. Comparatively, places where water naturally contained higher amounts of lithium had lower crime rates, and fewer hospitalizations for mental illness, psychosis, neurosis, personality disorders, schizophrenia, and even eating disorders.
James Howenstine, M.D. spent thirty-four years as an internal medicine specialist before becoming convinced that natural products are safer, more effective, and less expensive than pharmaceutical drugs. He is the author of A Physicians Guide to Natural Products that Work, and believes that lithium should be added directly to the water supply instead of fluoride, especially in counties where lithium levels are deficient. Doing so would reduce crime rates, increase longevity of brain function in seniors, and help curtail the staggering number of children who are diagnosed with learning disabilities. “Since placing lithium in our water could improve general health and decrease the need for pharmaceutical drugs, there is little possibility this will occur,” Howenstine said.